cold shoulder

people can be different in one situation. for example, you can be happy and mad at the same time. you are happy seconds ago but you can get mad a minute after that. i have been dealing with these kind of people all the time which makes me hard to even talk or ask for opinion etc because you don't know exactly what their ''moods'' are. sigh. i wish asking for something can be as easy as eating or wasting time.

i am the kind of person who likes to think deep. even deeper than what i should be thinking and not the things that i shouldn't think of. it's hard growing up. for those kids out there who can't wait to be a grown up, think twice. you really don't want to be in a situation where you have to deal it alone. nope. you don't. but i guess for me it's normal that i have been ''alone''. so alone these days. i prefer it that way. not that i like being lonely but sometimes you need to have some time alone for you to think and make things work. don't you think so?

anyways, can't wait for my not-so-long holidays. xx