tough life

How's my 2014 so far? Simple, NOT GOOD. It's only the beginning of the year and everything seems to fallen apart and getting hard day by day. I know that things will never get easy as you became an adult where you have to do/handle everything on your own. It's tough. Sometimes i feel like quitting my studies and just travel somewhere else alone explore new things i love. But..life is not that easy.

My daily life is like getting so messed up even an organizer won't help. I've got so much things to do until i don't even know where to start! Jimmy's getting busy with his job and i understand that but somehow getting more busy each day is just haih can be stressful not to him but for me as well. We seriously need sometime together very soon. Which i don't even know when cos we both seems sooooo in love with our own lifes now -_- but oh well, can't do anything about it. No point of complaining each bits of it cos it won't change anything.

Moving on...i mean ok i love college life, i really do but at some point it can gets on my nerves and i can feel the stress-ness coming day by day. I've like tonnes of things to submit and i know ''the day'' is getting nearer now. Sigh. A year to go. how time flies huh? Despite all this, i know i should be grateful of everything that i have now. I am grateful really, Alhamdulillah. Grateful to still be here, alive and have foods to eat. Yummy foods alhamdulillah ya Allah i couldn't ask for more. Not to forget the backbones, my family especially the parents. *getting emotional now* tskk.

Anyways, i should be strong now. More stronger than i was before. I know i can do this and i know i can handle this on my own. I just have to be more open and try to accept things the way it is. I am an adult now and i must accept that fact.

I wish i'm somewhere in the middle east or UK. *sigh*

2014

So i just got back from Miri 2 days ago and i did had fun while i was there. This time it was a really fast vacay and not really a holiday or should i say resting-ish holiday cos our maid just retired so we have to do everything by ourselves now. Like for me, my job is to clean the house, folding the clothes and cleaning my room and more than that. It was exhausting really. So it's not really a holiday for me though T_T i seriously need a body massage.

Anyways, 2013 about to end. But it's already 2014 in Australia. 2013 was a roller coaster ride for sure, a lot had happened. But what i learned in 2013 is that no matter what you do, no matter how full of craps your life is, just remember that you are here for a reason. Maybe the reasons not here yet but it will eventually. For most people 2013 maybe a wonderful year, especially to those who got married in 2013 or have a baby in 2013. But nonetheless, 2013 is not my year for sure. I am happy that it is about to end. Hoping for a new happy beginning and hoping that Jimmy and I will always be together despite the mess we had in 2013 but that just made us more stronger than we are now.

2013, thank you for everything. I had learnt my lessons.

Nothing to wish that much for 2014, just hoping for the best and filled with blessings. InsyaAllah. Here we go again.

Hi december

It's almost the end of  the year already. I still can't believe 2013 is almost done. done and dusted. what have i been achieving so far? None. 2013 is soooo not my year. a lot did happened during this year and i hated every single bits of it. 2013 is the year of stressness and sadness for me. and to my surprise i'm not quite sad that 2013 almost done and i hope 2014 will be at least a year that can actually mean something to me. i hope so.

anyway, life must move on. though i didn't achieved anything but i am glad that i'm still alive and healthy and just yea be here today. ish i hate packing T_T so not looking forward for this holidays.

cold shoulder

people can be different in one situation. for example, you can be happy and mad at the same time. you are happy seconds ago but you can get mad a minute after that. i have been dealing with these kind of people all the time which makes me hard to even talk or ask for opinion etc because you don't know exactly what their ''moods'' are. sigh. i wish asking for something can be as easy as eating or wasting time.

i am the kind of person who likes to think deep. even deeper than what i should be thinking and not the things that i shouldn't think of. it's hard growing up. for those kids out there who can't wait to be a grown up, think twice. you really don't want to be in a situation where you have to deal it alone. nope. you don't. but i guess for me it's normal that i have been ''alone''. so alone these days. i prefer it that way. not that i like being lonely but sometimes you need to have some time alone for you to think and make things work. don't you think so?

anyways, can't wait for my not-so-long holidays. xx

90's kid

I miss those amazing years when all the tv shows are just simply amazing and how i LOVE watching Kenan & Kel, All That and many more. I spent most of my time watching shows at Nickelodeon and some from Disney's too. It's sad that they didn't showed it on the tv these days. I remember everytime before going to school, my brother and i usually watched these tv shows every single morning and how we LOVE the feelings of watching our favourite series. I miss my childhood years. It's not that much but at least we're happy. There's no iPad or tab or what so ever, the only thing that we had was just well toys and colouring books and puzzles, yet we enjoyed it soo much. I miss it. Really missing it. I can say that my childhood years was filled with wonders. I think i don't even know how to use the computer till i was in high school lol. But things changed. As we grew up, we have our own life and our own things to do. I didn't watched tv that much these days but if i do, the only channel i love watching will probably be Travel & Living and Asian Food Channel oh and star world.

Even the songs from the 90's i missed it. Really missing it so bad! I am a HUGE fan of Spice Girls. Yes i am one of those girls who went craaazzzyyy over Spice Girls and how i wanted their shoes so bad lol. Those 6-10inch wedges that they usually wore. I even had their cd's, posters and what not. I love the Spice Girls. There are more celebrities i like back then such as Britney Spears (her songs are the best during the 90's), Nsync oh how i miss them!! and even Steps (for those who know the british band called Steps). There's more actually and i think everyone missed it. The songs and tv shows from the 90's till early 2000's, ahh brings back the memories.

Aaaaa missing all of it! 

Desserts

I am a huge huge fan of desserts! Especially cakes and puddings. I love bread pudding the most and i know this may be sounds weird but eating bread pudding with maple syrup just adds up the tasty-ness! You should try it. Talking about desserts, for those who followed me on Instagram must knew that i love taking photos of any desserts which i think worth to take picture of it and the love for desserts just won't fade away. To know that there are some people don't like desserts or not a dessert person just sounds weird because how can you not love desserts right?

Desserts simply is the best thing to eat when you're sad or tired or i don't know, for fun can do too. Ice creams cakes and what not, desserts will always be the best companion if you're down or moody. If i went to any hotel buffets, the section that i love the most will obviously be the dessert section. Oh i just love hotel's desserts! You won't get to eat any desserts like the ones you found in every hotel so it is a must to visit the desserts section.

Now i leave you guys with the photos of desserts that i found on google. lol

*sigh*

Now i'm hungry looking at these!

Wishlist x Dreams

Creating a wishlist will not harm anyone wouldn't it? I have so many things that i wish to have in my wishlist and i know most of it will never come true but at least i have a wish on things i wish to have which can actually help me to work more harder to achieve the things that i have been wishing for! Ok here goes ;

1. Oh my CELINE

I always love Celine. It will forever be my dream bag. I just can't decide which colour should i get! Oh what am i kidding, i sounded like i can afford a Celine bag which everyone knows i can't even if i'm a working lady or so on because it is THAT expensive. You and me forever Celine. Even the fake Celine costs thousands too.

2.  Givenchy Antigona

I am basically in love when i first met this Antigona. It is the kind of bag that i'm always falling for. I love the black one the most. I'm not really into Givenchy but when i saw this Antigona, i am in awe by the beauty. Totally loving it! Perfect for go to go bag! 

3. Chiara Ferragni flats

Chiara Ferragni flats are just to die for! I followed her instagram and i'm in love with her life. She gets to travel here and there, met awesome people and have a successful life, what more can you ask for? I really wish i have a career like Chiara and her designs are just phenomenal! I love these flats!! I wish they have it here in Malaysia. I just love all the glittery on the flats and the cute designs on it. Love it to bits!

4. Fendi 2jours 

I have this 2 jours in blue but...it is an inspired one. Can't afford the original ones obviously. So i think it was last week if i'm not mistaken, mom and i went to Fendi just to see what's new etc since my mom likes the brand Fendi, so we went in and there it was, THE 2 JOURS! It is such a gorgeous bag!I It's even prettier in real life. the colours are just glamorous and yes the price is around 7 thousands. Yup not 70 or 700 but 7k. 7 thousands each. I mean where do i find that kind amount of money? I think this bag is perfect when you go to travel or just a casual day hanging out at the malls or somewhere because you won't find any bags that has this unique shape like the 2 jours. I'm drooling over the pink-peachy ones and the grey. 

5. Casio tr150

I'm not really a gadget person (that much) but i think i really need this Casio tr150 camera because i heard so many reviews saying that this camera is the best for those who likes taking selfies. It has this soft touch on it that it can make your photos look more beautiful than any other normal photos. I'm not quite sure about the price but i think it is quite expensive. I need this tr150! This is my first time knowing that Casio actually has invented cameras too. Cool huh. 

6. Travelling

To travel the world. Ahh yes everyone's dream to travel the world. My wish is to travel well at least half of the world would do with someone i love, exploring new cities, new cultures and new foods. Just what i've always wanted. 

7. Married

I think it's every girl's dream/wish to get married one day. This is one in my wishlist and i know it's a long long long way to go for me but every girl can dream right? 

8. Nike Air Max Thea

I don't fancy sports shoes that much but when i first saw this Nike Air Max Thea, i'm like WOAH! I've never seen a sport shoe looks so pretty and neat and just perfect for girls! It's not just for running or anything to do with sports, you can basically wear it for casual wears or if you want to wear it for travel etc it is perfect! Just look at how neat it is! It comes with pretty colours too. I should definitely go to the sports shops after this. 

- So basically my wishlist aren't that long. I don't really want that many wishes because i knew that i can't afford to make it all came true one day but it's okay, it is a wishlist. Everyone has a wishlist and it is fun to make one because you seem to think of the things that you wanted so so much and hoping it will come true one day. This is my wishlist. What's yours? xx